Birthday Battles

Today was my one-week anniversary.  I should get a chip or something, like they do in A.A.

Today’s big battle, was birthdays.

My sister’s birthday was yesterday and we’re all going out as a family tomorrow night.  So I call her to find out what the plans are… she doesn’t know.

In addition to being diabetic, I’m also Catholic.  And we’re in Lent, which means no meat on Fridays.

My family and I talked about it, and they think I should throw out the “no meat” thing and just find something I can eat.  They say getting the diabetes under control is step one.  I think God would agree.

But for the rest of my family, no meat on Friday.  So my sister is trying to find a place that is good for no meat, good for me, and good for her nearly 6-year-old and nearly 2-year-old daughters.

So she calls me….

Honestly, I’m still trying to figure out what my own deal is, how am I supposed to help someone else plan their birthday dinner?

I love my sister and she’s definitely part of my big support group.  I think that’s the one thing that is going to help me survive this… the people who love me.

I try to tell my sister – pick whatever you want.  I figure if I know early enough, I can pick SOMETHING.  If the meal looks like it’s gonna be more than I should be having, I’ll plan my meals around it – so it’s not AS bad.

I think we’re gonna end up at Ruby Tuesdays or something like that.  Should be fine, they have a salad bar.  Maybe I’ll get that.

BTW – I start taking two pills a day tomorrow.  I’m hoping it won’t be long before we start decreasing the pills!

Published in: on February 25, 2010 at 9:23 pm  Leave a Comment  

Wait, what am I supposed to eat?

That was the biggest question I had when I found out I had diabetes. Hell, the doc barely got the words out of her mouth, before I asked.

I won’t lie, yes – I enjoy food.  And yes, I’m overweight.  But I’m not one of those people who eats all the time.  In fact, I probably didn’t eat enough times – but it was what was on my plate and how much I eat that is the problem.

I would go full stretches of 10-12 hours without eating, and most days I only eat two meals a day.  Granted, those two meals were not healthy.

The one thing I knew about diabetics, besides that sugar is a big problem for them, is they have to eat more often, but less portions.  I could tell right away, that was going to be my downfall.

Thank God for the internet.  The doc’s office was supposed to give me a 2,000 calorie diet.  She said that would give me enough information until I could get to my Diabetes Education class.

Unfortunately, they were fresh out of the diet guidelines.  Guess all the other fatties with diabetes got it before me.

Luckily for me, my mom insisted on meeting me at the doctor’s office.  I guess after getting that phone call earlier that morning, she was gonna be freaked out until she got all the details.

I may be almost 30, but to her I’m still that little boy she needs to protect.  Not going to see me complaining, I’m gonna need all the help and support that I can get!

So we went back to my mom and dad’s house and immediately got on the internet.  We were looking for anything we could find to give us the quick “What you need to know about diabetes” tour. 

Honestly, my grandfather got diabetes when he was older, but he was able to control his.  We didn’t really know a lot about it.  Now I wish I would have asked more questions, wish I would have asked more about what he was going through.  But I didn’t, and I don’t know a lot about the disease.

I didn’t have time to sit around and waste, I needed to know as much as possible, as quickly as possible.  So we turned to the internet. and the American Diabetes Association websites have TON of information on them.  Everything from what you can eat, what you can’t eat and what you should avoid.

I’m still trying to figure it all out.  Fruits and veggies are good, starches from potatoes and bread carbs are bad.

I know you get a learning curve when you first get diagnosed, but I wanted to know everything right away.  If I was going to get my blood glucose down, I needed to change everything I ate – right now.

By the way – I mentioned in the first post that I was discovered with my B.G. around 560.  When I went to the doctor, it was down to 339.  I know that’s still REALLY high, but considering what it was, I was thankful.

I still don’t know what to buy in the grocery store, guess I’ll figure that out soon.

Inspirational Quote: “Nearly all men can stand adversity, but if you want to test a man’s character, give him power.” – President Abraham Lincoln

Published in: on February 25, 2010 at 2:23 am  Leave a Comment  

So I’m a diabetic…

Reality can be a harsh, hard thing.

Six days ago my entire life changed, and all I can do is strap in and get ready for the rollercoaster that is life.

Hello, I’m a diabetic.

Before last Thursday, that was never even something I thought I would say.  Never even saw it coming at all – hit me like a one-way train.  Completely derailed me.

This is the story about how I found out…

I was sitting at work, when I got a call from my mom.  It was just before 7 am, so I knew immediately something was wrong.  And it didn’t help when the first thing she did was tell me to “grab a pen and sit down.”

That’s when she told me that my kidney doctor had just called my parents’ house and said they needed to speak with me right away.  I’d been at the doctor the day before (I have a non-stop battle with kidney stones) and while I was there, I had a blood test done.  The test was supposed to be checking the calcium in my blood.

Anyways, the only thing they would tell her is that some numbers were “seriously out of whack,” but they couldn’t tell her anything else.  

She didn’t tell me at the time, but her first thought was that I had leukemia.  When she later told me, I almost laughed because it was the same thing I thought when she told me!  Neither of us wanted to freak the other out with our thoughts.

The doctor’s office didn’t open for an hour after we got the phone call.  I’m not going to lie… it was one of the scariest hours of my life.  I was thinking all the worst.  At one point, I’d convinced myself that I was going to die.  I don’t remember what I was dying from, but I was convinced it was over.

I started calling as soon as they opened – but apparently I wasn’t the only one who they scared the crap out of that day.  After a couple tries, I just had to settle for leaving a message to have them call me back.

Again, I was waiting…

I finally got the call back.  It seemed like an eternity, but I’m sure it was just a few minutes.  I honestly couldn’t tell you, even though I clearly remember staring at the clock the whole time.

The nurse had one of the most serious tones I’ve ever heard.  That didn’t help my nervousness about what I was about to hear.  She told me that my blood workup showed my blood glucose was critically high.  Then she threw out the number 560.

Not knowing anything about diabetes, I said “I’m guessing that’s high?”  She told me that the normal levels should be at 100.  I nearly collapsed right there.  She told me I needed to get to my regular doctor “TODAY.”

After several phone calls, I finally got an appointment for later that day, but it wasn’t for nearly 7 hours after the call.

Seven painfully slow hours later, I was finally at the doctor’s office.

The doctor walked in, sat down and said the words that rocked my world.  “So it looks like you’re a diabetic now.”

After many questions and trying to convince her that “maybe this is wrong” and “could this be a temporary problem?” she told me that from this point on, I should just accept that I’m a diabetic.

Type 2.

Before this whole ordeal, I didn’t even know what that meant.  Now I do.

So for now… I’m on medication.  One pill a day, but starting Friday I have to bump it to twice a day.  I’ve had to completely change what I’m eating and I’m trying to learn everything I can about diabetes.  I want to control this, I don’t want it to control me.

I will fight… even when the fight is tough.  This is my life.

Published in: on February 24, 2010 at 10:31 pm  Comments (1)